Friday, March 22, 2013

给我自己的...

我容易得意忘形,爱发梦,缺点多。
我不该急功近利,妄想不努力就可以得到想要的结果。
我不该这么贪心,追求不属于我的东西。
我不该那么计较,为了那些我不能永远拥有的物质东西那么执著。
我不该那么现实,事事都衡量其弊与利。
我不该那么情绪化,因为问题没解决,反而让旁人也不好过,场面尴尬。
我不该逃避现实,应该鼓起勇气面对。
我该珍惜我拥有的,因为有些东西对很多人而言都是遥不可及的。
我该多为别人着想,因为有些事他们也身不由己。
我该知道诚实有时很残酷,因为会伤了别人。
我该投身更有意义的事,用真心去帮助别人。
我该适时地坚持,完成我的理想。
我该宽心的放下,不然折磨别人也折磨自己,不太划算。
可是我做得到吗?给我一些时间。
如果下辈子我还是人,我希望您能给我一个单纯的脑袋,给我一个宽容不小气的心,这样我不会太复杂。
感谢您给我的好家庭,好妈妈,不管我多糟,她依然那么爱我,辛苦地满足我所需。
感谢您让我遇见很好的导师,当我迷失时成为我心灵的辅导师,一针见血地指出我的缺点,让我能不断地进步。
感谢您让我遇见性格与我有别的朋友,他们都是磨炼我待人处事的好导师。
感谢您让我遇见只有一面之缘的陌生人,因为从他们身上我吸取到各种宝贵的教训。
感谢您让我经历各种酸甜苦辣,因为那样我才算活过。
感谢您让我身心健全,让我能走,能跳,能跑,能看,能听,能闻,能尝,如果没有这些,我根本无法体会世界的美。
写到这,我又能继续前行了,谢谢啦,哈哈!




Monday, March 19, 2012

泄+泻

果然,有一些事情不是努力就可以的。纵使我努力放下以前种种的过去,决定用更宽容和诚恳的心去对待那些曾经伤过我心的人,可永远就会有一群人既一开始相互看不顺眼,就算曾经有一段时间非常熟络都只是空虚一场,到最后还是如此的陌生,是我没尽全力,还是因为伤痕已经深得无法愈合,或是我们观点本来就不一样,近在咫尺,你要我冷眼以对就一个字:难。渐渐地我觉得若我残酷一点,狠一点,心好像就会好过一些。它的存在已经别无意义,剩下的就只有虚假的快乐与非常真实的痛苦,我已找不到让我继续珍惜的借口,我希望可以像上大号那样呼把它泻掉,不再让它有机会触碰我的心,让它有机可乘把它揉成一团,要不然我怕我未老先衰。我催眠我自己这些都不值得,并衷心感谢它的教诲,虽然伤得深,却让我修了人生最重要的一堂课,这么多年了我该去探索别的课程。我现在泄一股气,呼一声把这些负面情绪都泄出来,再见尘埃,请您随窗外的大风远去,别再让我看见你!=p

Monday, February 20, 2012

Random

What's been done can never be undone, I will move on with a really big, wide smile on my facieeeeeeeeee....................^@^ and with a brain full of hopes and wishes...

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Honesty Is The Best Policy, Really?

I have always thought that honesty is the best policy so I try living up to it as much as possible but the society doesn't seem to favor it as much. As of today and the past few months, I guess I have learnt that some dishonesty is necessary in life but I have not quite make up my mind yet how much dishonesty is appropriate.

Monday, June 27, 2011

Painful-Bitter-Devastated-Helpless

No words can describe how I feel now, I am so helpless, this is one of the few moments in my life that I feel so unsure about my own feelings...the one reality that I have been avoiding is hitting me hard now...I remember all those times since birth until now, you bringing me to the jetty where we cruise along the river in the wooden little ships, making paper boats for me, buying us snacks late in the night and got your toe hurt, riding you blue colored bike to the grocery store to grab some chips, going to the playground with you and got chased by dogs, taking care of the 3 of us when papa left us, bringing us to school, buying me a dictionary, open the gate for me when I was locked outside, buying me an electronic panda, shopping with you, buying dim sum during the New Years, will I ever be able to see you again? I won't ask for anything more, as long as you are happy, I hope you will have a good life now and in the future, be free from mental suffering and enmity... my dear no.1 grandpa, I will never forget every moment we shared...The house will be so quiet without you and every other New Year will not be the same without you...

Friday, February 11, 2011

Biology and My Life

I am the simple dominant-recessive type, incomplete dominance is just not me...wuahaha, I don't think I belong or is able to blend into any group because I am special in my own sense. ^^

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Magic!!! Magical!!!

Actually, it was my silliness, no real magic here. Hehe, I stop blogging for one whole month because of my silliness....Nothing special to share about this, only those three people in A 0608 knows why.... Sorry for crapping again cos i ate crabs again, this time around chilli crabs, wah real HOTTT!!! Actually, there's a lot to share on ICPU, BTN and all the stuff we do in Subang Jaya. I think i need a few days to finish it up and maybe more. It was a year that i learn lots of new things and stuff but there's also lots of downs of course. I'm happy the most now for i have overcome my fear on a lot of things: firstly, in Genting, I dare myself to play Spaceshot, the most scary one in the whole theme park although i close my eyes for the whole trip through in the PIRATE SHIP...with my whole body shivering not because of the coldness, it was something else and it's complex. I dun really know what exactly that is holding me back. Then in BTN, not without fears but a lot of fears too, i went for abseiling which is actually compulsory by the way. One more that will have a spot in my heart forever was the kembara part where i was soak in mud like i was in some kinda of beauty treatment and ended up being laughed by the other participants. But i felt nothing of it in truth, they can laugh all they want until they lose all their teeth, but once again i've learn something new, we are prone to be criticized as we live, but the most important part is how we view it, so i continue my journey back to the camp from the kembara site like nothing had really happen and deep down inside i actually felt proud for having myself drenged in mud, make fun by the others but the best part here is that i've gain something out of it!!!Yeah, bingo although it is quite lame... Ok, the kembara ends here.......Then it's time to pack and go home and now, I actually felt a bit empty even though i have access to the internet and have my laptop back which i can play restaurant city for as long as I want. But the journey continues, and I hope I will fly to Canada this August successfully as there was more prcedures that need to be carried out, visa application is up tomorrow........hai another busy day in kl and a lot of busy business in WISMA MCA..... I shall end this with my signature OINK! OINK! OINK!