泄+泻

果然，有一些事情不是努力就可以的。纵使我努力放下以前种种的过去，决定用更宽容和诚恳的心去对待那些曾经伤过我心的人，可永远就会有一群人既一开始相互看不顺眼，就算曾经有一段时间非常熟络都只是空虚一场，到最后还是如此的陌生，是我没尽全力，还是因为伤痕已经深得无法愈合，或是我们观点本来就不一样，近在咫尺，你要我冷眼以对就一个字：难。渐渐地我觉得若我残酷一点，狠一点，心好像就会好过一些。它的存在已经别无意义，剩下的就只有虚假的快乐与非常真实的痛苦，我已找不到让我继续珍惜的借口，我希望可以像上大号那样呼把它泻掉，不再让它有机会触碰我的心，让它有机可乘把它揉成一团，要不然我怕我未老先衰。我催眠我自己这些都不值得，并衷心感谢它的教诲，虽然伤得深，却让我修了人生最重要的一堂课，这么多年了我该去探索别的课程。我现在泄一股气，呼一声把这些负面情绪都泄出来，再见尘埃，请您随窗外的大风远去，别再让我看见你！=p

Random

What's been done can never be undone, I will move on with a really big, wide smile on my facieeeeeeeeee....................^@^ and with a brain full of hopes and wishes...

Honesty Is The Best Policy, Really?

I have always thought that honesty is the best policy so I try living up to it as much as possible but the society doesn't seem to favor it as much. As of today and the past few months, I guess I have learnt that some dishonesty is necessary in life but I have not quite make up my mind yet how much dishonesty is appropriate.

Painful-Bitter-Devastated-Helpless

No words can describe how I feel now, I am so helpless, this is one of the few moments in my life that I feel so unsure about my own feelings...the one reality that I have been avoiding is hitting me hard now...I remember all those times since birth until now, you bringing me to the jetty where we cruise along the river in the wooden little ships, making paper boats for me, buying us snacks late in the night and got your toe hurt, riding you blue colored bike to the grocery store to grab some chips, going to the playground with you and got chased by dogs, taking care of the 3 of us when papa left us, bringing us to school, buying me a dictionary, open the gate for me when I was locked outside, buying me an electronic panda, shopping with you, buying dim sum during the New Years, will I ever be able to see you again? I won't ask for anything more, as long as you are happy, I hope you will have a good life now and in the future, be free from mental suffering and enmity... my dear no.1 grandpa, I will never forget every moment we shared...The house will be so quiet without you and every other New Year will not be the same without you...

Biology and My Life

I am the simple dominant-recessive type, incomplete dominance is just not me...wuahaha, I don't think I belong or is able to blend into any group because I am special in my own sense. ^^

Magic!!! Magical!!!

Actually, it was my silliness, no real magic here. Hehe, I stop blogging for one whole month because of my silliness....Nothing special to share about this, only those three people in A 0608 knows why.... Sorry for crapping again cos i ate crabs again, this time around chilli crabs, wah real HOTTT!!! Actually, there's a lot to share on ICPU, BTN and all the stuff we do in Subang Jaya. I think i need a few days to finish it up and maybe more. It was a year that i learn lots of new things and stuff but there's also lots of downs of course. I'm happy the most now for i have overcome my fear on a lot of things: firstly, in Genting, I dare myself to play Spaceshot, the most scary one in the whole theme park although i close my eyes for the whole trip through in the PIRATE SHIP...with my whole body shivering not because of the coldness, it was something else and it's complex. I dun really know what exactly that is holding me back. Then in BTN, not without fears but a lot of fears too, i went for abseiling which is actually compulsory by the way. One more that will have a spot in my heart forever was the kembara part where i was soak in mud like i was in some kinda of beauty treatment and ended up being laughed by the other participants. But i felt nothing of it in truth, they can laugh all they want until they lose all their teeth, but once again i've learn something new, we are prone to be criticized as we live, but the most important part is how we view it, so i continue my journey back to the camp from the kembara site like nothing had really happen and deep down inside i actually felt proud for having myself drenged in mud, make fun by the others but the best part here is that i've gain something out of it!!!Yeah, bingo although it is quite lame... Ok, the kembara ends here.......Then it's time to pack and go home and now, I actually felt a bit empty even though i have access to the internet and have my laptop back which i can play restaurant city for as long as I want. But the journey continues, and I hope I will fly to Canada this August successfully as there was more prcedures that need to be carried out, visa application is up tomorrow........hai another busy day in kl and a lot of busy business in WISMA MCA..... I shall end this with my signature OINK! OINK! OINK!